Last Baby???

I was recently asked it Reid will be our last baby. I can truthfully say YES! When Allen and I first got married, we had originally agreed we wanted 3 kids- a houseful if you ask me. After trying for quite a while to get our family started, I would have been content with just one. While pregnant with Hayleigh, I LOVED it, I could do it over and over again... without any other little ones running around that is. While delivering Hayleigh, I commented a few times that anyone that goes through that more than once is crazy.. SO now I'm crazy. Of course, all of the bad memories, or I mean pain memories pretty much leave your mind once you hold that newborn baby in your arms, and you forget all about how bad it all was to an extent. Now that I'm approaching 30 years old in a little over six months, ummm I don't think I want to be pregnant after this. Don't get me wrong, even with this pregnancy being a total surprise, and not at all when I would have planned to get pregnant, it has been a very easy pregnancy with a few exceptions.

One, Reid is quite a pusher- he gets in my ribs, and and makes my days every once in a while miserable already.

Two, I would have never have planned to be pregnant while trying to move cross country. Granted, I didn't have to lift anything- that was nice, but I felt bad I couldn't do more. Another note to that, having to transfer all of our doctors, and try to pick up a new ob in the middle of a pregnancy is completely stressful. I miss my midwife back home, while the one I have now is alright, it's just not the same. Bigger hospital, bigger town, and no idea what to expect from this place.

Three, I was just SURE we would have another girl, and we would get to use Hayleigh's clothes over again- planning another pregnancy for the new arrival to be born the same time of year. Yeah, that didn't work obviously, and really back fired on me- no girl, but a boy, and a fall/winter baby, instead of a summer baby. I wanted to wait until Hayleigh was 3- go back sometime next year, but as you can plainly see from the big bump on my middle section, that did not happen.

Four, while I didn't experience morning sickness- just indigestion once again, everything has went really smooth except my teeth have been extremely sensitive, and we have to go see the high risk doctor now for a follow up ultrasound. I realize the situation is not that bad, but in my mind, having to see the high risk doctor is not something I look forward to doing. I'm restricted from traveling over 2 hours away now- I hate being told I can't do something.

Five, I have no one here with me to help me out when Allen is gone. None of my family or friends live close by- they are all 14 hours away. So, if I get to where I need a break, or help with Hayleigh, I don't have that option to get someone to watch her for me for a while. It is me on my own, which I can do it by myself, but it would be nice to be close to family sometimes. I'm such a homebody, that I don't really feel like going out much. I get tired, Hayleigh is two, and it wears us both out into complete crankiness. Also, we will be moving when our lease is up next year, and I'm not sure where to, so I don't want to get to comfortable here, making friends I will have to say goodbye to months away.

On the flip side to all of this, we did not have to go through fertility treatments again. One of my friends that went to the same specialist we had, is going through it all again. I can honestly say it was a lot easier for us just having a surprise, instead of dragging Hayleigh back and forth 2 hour trips one way a few times a week to try to conceive again. We are also having a boy, so everything this time around is completely flipped from what we had before.

Don't get me wrong, I am completely happy- I get to stay home with Hayleigh now, and will be able to with Reid as well. I know things will be hairy- no help for me most of the time, but not having to leave two kids to go back to work, and taking them to a sitter, will ease my nerves too.

ANYWAY, I got off topic. Reid will be our last baby. I originally wanted to be done having kids by the time I turned 30, so we could enjoy them, and be able to keep up with them more. I have been researching birth control options, since what we were doing- nothing, doesn't work anymore- obviously, and I don't want to have a newborn baby, and get pregnant again. We are happy with two kids, I am confident I can handle two kids, and we feel that is a way better number of kids for us than three would be. I think I would pull the rest of what hair I would have left out with three kids. One boy, one girl... DONE. I've considered getting permanent birth control done- not being operated on- kind of like IUD birth control- but it doesn't just last 5 years, it is a permanent thing. The appeal to that is for me not to have surgery. Allen is too big of a baby to get operated on- even if it is an outpatient thing, so I will do it. SO, after Reid gets here, at my 6wk follow up appointment, I will be getting on Mirena. It will give me 5 years to make absolutely sure we are content with 2 kids, and I just feel like 30 is too young for me to make a permanent decision.