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About Me

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Western North Dakota , United States
My husband, Allen, and I are high school sweet hearts. We started dating Sep.99'- I kind of followed Allen home one day, and never did leave, is Allen's story. November 02' we were engaged, and on November 22,2003 - we were married. Having been married for 6 years in 2009, marked the 5th year we had been trying to start our family. With the referral of a Fertility Specialist from a friend, our IUI attempts ended up being a complete success despite my doubts. We welcomed our sweet little girl, Hayleigh into the world on June 30,2010 at 6:28am after 37wks and 1 day of gestation. She weighed 7lbs 14oz and was 20 in long. We found out that we were Baby #2 on April Fool's Day- a complete surprise! Reid Allen was born 11/13/12 3:24am 9lbs 8.2oz 21", after 38wks 5 days. Our 3rd baby, Eva Jane, was born on April 19, 2015 after suffering a pregnancy loss June of 2014. We are currently anxiously awaiting baby #4 due 2 days before Eva's birthday, so we are having Irish Twins! Our family is so blessed and happy to be growing!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Getting Ready for the BIG day .... AGAIN

Okay, So I have been keeping a secret from everyone. Allen and I ARE in the middle of our 2nd IUI cycle. Friday was my last day for my follistim injections. I was prescribed Femera once again, with follistim injections at 60 instead of 75 units per day, followed by HCG Trigger shot last night. I went in for my first ultrasound on Wednesday the 14th, and started with my femera on Thursday, the 15th. I started my injections on Saturday, the 17th. I was fully expecting some of the same side effects as what I had had the last round, joint pain, and hot flashes... that was it. Boy, was I wrong! This round, I have had nausa, aches, migraine, a allergy cold and hot flashes. I didn't really have anything until this last Thursday. It seemed like every time I would give myself an injection, within a few hours, I would be up out of bed throwing up in the bathroom. It was always the same, 3-4 times in one sitting, and then I was fine. Friday morning was the worst, and I do mean the WORST.. I had been sick of course that night.. thank God I was on vacation this last week! Anyway, we had our follicle ultrasound check, and blood work doctor visit at Evansville @ 9:30 that morning. I woke up with a full out migraine, nausa, stopped up head, and just plain blah feeling- the absolute worst feeling ever! I really felt like I had a really bad hangover!

We got to the doctor's office with 5 min to spare.. it ended up being the longest wait I have ever had - we waited over an hour to get in... needless to say, they were very busy. We finally got back after I had my blood work done. My RE found 3 really good looking follicles this time, and they were all around the same size, unlike last time. This visit was very easy going- my RE did the ultrasound scan instead of that rip from hell that did the last cycle. I ended up with 4 follicles this time, one ended up hiding behind another. But, at least we were balanced this time, 2 on each side! So, since everything looks good, we are now going in tomorrow morning at 7:30am for IUI. I really can't say that I am really that geared up about this round. I have had a slight fever off and on, that I have been taking tyloneol for, and I have been stuffed up to boot.

So, if this round doesn't work, I really don't think that it will really surprise me... nothing around the whole cycle has went right... at least I didn't over achieve this time on follicles. We are really hoping that this round works.. if not, we will have to wait until December to do the next cycle. I am guessing though, that December will be soo busy, that we will have to wait until at least Janurary to start up again. So, with all of that being said, Surprise!! We were really not going to say anything to anyone, but, heh, with the way I feel right now, I think you could burn down a barn and I would just go and get marshmallows! So, wish us luck, and so this begins the long awaited wait, until November 15th until we can test. Yes, I am waiting the entire 35 day wait this time. It starts from day 1 of my cycle, so, the 15th will be day 35. Don't hold your breath! I promise I will not be!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Starting Over

I know it has been a while since I have been on here last. Over the past time, I have struggled with many emotions- mainly not soo good ones. I have been getting overwhelmed more easily lately, and I have been more tired. I am tired of everything not going as according to "my plan".

It seems like I have just stopped caring about others, while I try to take care of myself. More and more people are popping up pregnant... some with the same "due date time" as I would have had.

Things just have been rough after the last round not "sticking". I really feel deep down that because I have been trying to bury the pain down, and go on, everything else has just felt like it has not been going right either.

I guess I had not really come to the realization that I was really feeling this way until a few weeks ago. Allen and I went out to go bow hunting. We did not even make it out of the truck before we started arguing. It was the most ridiculous thing to fight about... I forgot my release for my bow at home... Allen had been getting all of the gear together, and did not get the release in the bag. I had a huge fit over it, and he finally just asked me what I was soo mad about. I replied without even thinking "I should be pregnant right now, and not even be here!" I really love hunting, and I had been preparing myself before the iui cycle mentally that I would not be hunting this year. Well, as you can see, my "plans" were changed of course, and, I never really made myself face this issue.

Days are going by, getting better and better. We are planning a new cycle... we are just will not be saying much about it this time. I planned too much, and really "lived" everything on the last cycle, so I will just be taking it easy on the next, and try not to get too obsessed about the next. I really think there is such a thing as trying too hard... I am a prime example of this some days. So, the next cycle, we will not be "trying sooo hard".

We are hanging in there for the time being... I promise I'll be back to my regular self soon. If the time comes for the next cycle, I will keep everything saved as a draft, until we can announce anything. We were really hoping for this month to be the month to try again, but things have just been soo rough, we are debating over just letting everything settle before starting again.