Hard Day

Today, is not a very happy day. Hayleigh and I just got back from taking Allen to the airport- I cried the whole way there and the whole way back. I've gotten a lot more emotional the past week- I'm pretty sure that the having to go back for another ultrasound did me in. It doesn't help that this morning, before we left to take Allen back to the airport, Allen took Hayleigh's crib rail off of her bed, and put the toddler rail on. Hayleigh loves it- me.. well, she's a big girl now, and not a baby anymore. That was something that had to be done. It was getting hard for me to put her in her crib at night, with my growing belly, and she has climbed out of it once already two weeks ago, and has had me scared she will get hurt trying to get out of it again. So, now, I have a big girl here with me to start up potty training again this week with, and Allen is on his way back up to North Dakota.

 Tomorrow, the doctor's office is supposed to call and set up an appointment for the ultrasound- not looking forward to that, even though I've told myself we get to see Reid again, and all of the good perks to it. All I can think of is the bad things. I'm just hoping that they will let me schedule the appointment for when Allen is home again- I don't think I could handle all of the stress of the appointment, and trying to corral Hayleigh all by myself.

I'm going to try to keep busy for the next few weeks- get my first order from my Etsy shop shipped out this week, get the house cleaned, maybe even disinfect all of Hayleigh's toys? I don't know. For some reason, I just know these next two weeks are going to pass by really slow, and they will be stressful. I just have that feeling anyway.

Last night, was my first night of not being able to get very comfortable sleeping. I was extremely bloated, and just could not find a comfortable position. My ribs are sore- from Reid crawling up in them, and it is just getting to where I'm really almost ready to meet this guy- healthy. Not being able to get comfortable last night scared me- I'm guessing we still have 14wks or so left to go- and that is with Reid coming early too. I don't know how I'm gonna make it mostly by myself here, taking care of Hayleigh, but just going grocery shopping anymore is getting harder and harder to do. Most of the problem, I am sure of is that it had been really hot this past week, and that just makes it even harder for me to breath and get around. So, for the next two weeks- if we do not have to leave the house, we are not going to.

Today's just a really tough day for me- we will be okay, and I'm planning on cleaning, doing laundry, and keeping busy for this afternoon.