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Western North Dakota , United States
My husband, Allen, and I are high school sweet hearts. We started dating Sep.99'- I kind of followed Allen home one day, and never did leave, is Allen's story. November 02' we were engaged, and on November 22,2003 - we were married. Having been married for 6 years in 2009, marked the 5th year we had been trying to start our family. With the referral of a Fertility Specialist from a friend, our IUI attempts ended up being a complete success despite my doubts. We welcomed our sweet little girl, Hayleigh into the world on June 30,2010 at 6:28am after 37wks and 1 day of gestation. She weighed 7lbs 14oz and was 20 in long. We found out that we were Baby #2 on April Fool's Day- a complete surprise! Reid Allen was born 11/13/12 3:24am 9lbs 8.2oz 21", after 38wks 5 days. Our 3rd baby, Eva Jane, was born on April 19, 2015 after suffering a pregnancy loss June of 2014. We are currently anxiously awaiting baby #4 due 2 days before Eva's birthday, so we are having Irish Twins! Our family is so blessed and happy to be growing!

Thursday, September 26, 2013

A case of missing everything...

Pretty sad when I have to go back to my blog to see what I even wrote not too long ago, because I've forgot what I've said on here.

Insomnia will do that to you I guess... I've had it for the past 2-3 weeks. I don't know why, but I just lay there in bed. I finally moved a tv with a dvd player into our bedroom last night, and watched my all time fav movie, Father of the Bride I & II in bed. It was nice- lights dim, nice breeze coming in through my windows, crickets chirping in the night, baby screaming....wait, what??! Yeah, that would be Reid, still not sleeping through the night wanting a night cap- that's what I'm calling his night time 1-2 am bottles. He just wants to suck away on them and pass out into sleep- wish I could! Sleep that is!

So, I worked on the kid's closets yesterday, we ran errands today, and dealt with dog poop in the house. GAG! It is by far the WORST smell EVER!!! Missy must have had some chicken salad thanks to one of the kids last night, and it finally hit her when I conveniently went to get Reid out of his crib from his nap. She missed the kitchen floor by 3 inches, pooping liquid dog shit onto my carpet.. Sorry for the "s" bomb, but it put me into a level of pissed off instantly. It will probably take 2-3 days for that smell to leave the carpet- hopefully airing the house will help. Made me gag, cuss, and ready to take a bleach bath. We also got to stop by some friends of ours house, and get a little visit in. It's nice having someone else we know here now. The kids played- Reid stood by himself for a whole 30 seconds in their front yard. We followed that with a trip to Walmart, then home with both kids tuckered out fast asleep.

Reid has another tooth poking thru his gums ready to break through anytime now. He's growing soo fast, and I'm completely not ready for his 1st birthday that is now less than 2 months away...

Hayleigh got a nice bruise on her check last night falling in the tub onto a toy- it ended up being not as bad as I thought it would be- Thank God!

I finally got our pictures scheduled for our family pictures out here, and Reid's 1st birthday pics back in Olney, along with doctor appointments. I even had to order a new Mommy calendar for helping me remember appointments, since my memory is MIA right now. I swear I looked all over the house for my now missing engagement ring- still have not found it- but managed to find a hard hat sticker for Allen that has been missing since we moved back in July... I'm still missing several shirts, the ring, and a charger and battery for my porter cable power tool set. I need to get on the ball with my jig saw before it hits a cold snap here.. I did however to help this order a new charger, so now I can charge our 1 battery for our set of tools. Aggravates the hell out of me not being able to find stuff!

I plan on over hauling our kitchen tomorrow, and getting the lawn a nice mow, then going on a cleaning spree, and relax as it will be cooling off here yet again.

Monday, September 23, 2013

Being a SAHM and Oilfield Wife

I've had a lot of things on my mind lately, and I just get a lot of time to myself to think about it all- especially like right now... It's 11:30 pm, the kids are both in bed, and Allen is back up at work tonight.

I'm sure some of you would love to know what I do all day. "She has plenty of time to just lounge around", "Must be nice to afford to stay home", the list goes on and on of what I have heard, or what I hear about what society thinks the stay at home mom does.

Yes, being a stay at home mom is really nice, and having the house to myself 2 wks at a time without having to fix a big supper every night since my husband is away at work. BUT, I still to this day miss working- my time with adults. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE getting to spend all of my time watching our kids grow, hitting milestones, etc, but sometimes, especially days that I don't go outside of the house- like today- it was raining all day.. those days make for hard LONG days. The kids get crabby and stir crazy from not being able to go outside, we play hungry hippos, hide and seek, watch some movies with popcorn, etc, and I try to clean. I realize that getting to stay at home with the kids is a really great thing, and I really enjoy it, but some days just get really, really lonely.. It only happens to me when Allen is away at work, and I am here in the house by myself with the kids. When Allen's here, we are out and about 24/7, and I have the company of another adult. When Allen is gone, it is 2 whole long weeks just me and the company of a 10 month old that loves to scream, and a 3 year old little girl who is now obsessed with flying like Peter Pan. So, at the end of the day, I don't have someone to walk in and help me clear my head, to unwind with, or just to have the company of another adult. My schedule runs around the kids, not that of my spouse that is getting off of work, so it is the job that keeps going on and on, that never ends for me.

The topic has come up about me going back to work if it's so hard, or to do something that I can occupy my time with and bring in an income. The truth is I would LOVE to be a nurse, but our schedule won't allow it. I could put in the time in school, and get a job nursing here, BUT with Allen gone at night and for 2 wks at a time, there is no one here to be with the kids- go to their things they will be involved in with school and outside of school. I would most likely start out on nights, weekends, and holidays... I'm not taking that time away from the 2 most important little people in my life. Even if I waited for them to start school, I'm still not going to do that to them... miss ball games, school events.. I can't do that to them. My mom pursued her career into being a paramedic when I was in 6th grade. While it was fulfilling to her, and still is, I cannot tell you how many time me and my sister sat there and cried when she would have to leave to take call, or a transfer, or just go in. She missed many games, track meets, holidays, etc... We felt like we came after her job. I don't want that for my family, so even though it is something I would LOVE to do, I LOVE my family more than that dream.

The other job I would be really happy with that would fit around our schedule, and I can use the perks at home would be to become a photographer. That is what I'm gravitating towards more now. I love taking pictures of the kids- to me you can't have enough pictures, and those pictures should not come from you going broke paying for them. In our area, there is no one that does pictures under $100 with a cd. Their prints are sky high- they are charging at least 20 times what the print actually costs, with a hefty sitting fee along with those prints. I want to do a great job, meet new people, and not get rich off of it, but not go broke over it all either. We have been shopping for a camera, and I believe I know which one we will be getting me. I've been pinning on Pinterest like a nut, and reading all that I can about what I need to learn and know as a photographer with a DSLR camera, since I obviously won't be taking pictures from my cell phone. So, I guess my dream next to being a nurse on the maternity ward would be to be there helping capture those precious moments for someone else if I can't be there to help them though it on the medical side. I know there will have to be a little adjusting to enable me to be able to do that, but I'm sure I can find a way, and not have it take me away from my family.

So, for now we do crafts, work on our ABCs and counting, and just having fun playing around outside on walks or in the backyard. When Allen does get home, we spend all the time we can together, even if we are out running around almost every day. We have our date nights now, that are a complete breath of fresh air to us- and me especially. Not having to feed and care for the kids 24/7...getting a 3-4 hour break and being able to eat my own food without having to share, or feed, or take someone to the potty are great! Those little things make me a much better mom, and wife, especially since our time is limited with Allen's schedule. They allow me to get some time to unwind, and think more clearly on what we want for our family.

Anyway.... lots for our future coming and with me keeping the kids and the family my top priority. There are many things I'm nervous about right now, and things that are in the air that I know will come down soon. For now, I'm working my hardest on being the best mom I can- because that is why after all I am here with our kids every day- to give them the best upraising I can while Allen is not here with me. I know everything will work it's way out. All that I can do is to make a little time for myself, get some adult conversations in via phone, or in the check out line at Walmart, or catching up on hollywood gossip in a People magazine.

Monday, September 16, 2013

Catching up, Mom Advise, and Dates

It's been a busy week here already, and I know I've been MIA on here as well. I started another private blog for Hayleigh, and after announcing I had done so, I wished I wouldn't have said a word about it at all on Facebook. To me, I was passing on something I thought was a great idea to other mothers out there, others thought I was going to keep a private journal of every crazy detail that goes on in my extended family. I honestly got the idea from Good Luck Charlie- the series on Disney Channel. I have no idea how open of a relationship I'll have with Hayleigh in 10 years, and there are topics that are not so comfortable to be handled in person- the talks I'm dreading. SO, I thought hey, wouldn't it be nice if she didn't want to hear some things come out of my mouth, she could at least read what I thought about it all.. I want to teach her about guys/ men, love, relationships, family, and just things it seems like I have just learned I want her to be ahead of me on. For some reason panties were pulled all in a wad, and it was taken way out of context. I will be making another blog just for Reid as well sometime soon. Instead of writing letters that can get lost, this is a way I can save things for both of the kids- for just in case or for just some Mom Advise along the way.

In other happenings, Allen is on his week of vacation now, and is out hunting Elk and black bear for us. I'm holding down the fort here, trying to get my mom's birthday box sent out. We still have 2 projects to make for it yet. This week, I am also getting Hayleigh signed up for her dance/gymnastics classes.

Ohh yeah! Almost forgot the very exciting news- we finally found a babysitter, and had our first date night out this year!!! Our sitter did a fabulous job with the kids, they both were smitten with her, LOVED her, and didn't want her to leave. Hayleigh was all cuddled up on the couch with her when we got back home. I had asked what the  going rate of a sitter was, and found I was a tad high, but after coming home to both of the kids, we decided that our sitter did deserve what we wanted to pay, and with paying more, hopefully she would be more inclined to come back.

On our date out, we went to Red Lobster, had a very nice dinner, then followed up with shopping kid free at Cabelas for the rest of Allen's gear.

There is soo much more I would love to say, but I don't want to be taken out of context again. It's starting to feel like that game Relay... what you started out saying sounds nothing like what was passed down along from person to person. Facebook for me might well be on the chopping block. While I like keeping up with my friends on what is going on, I don't like loosing control of my pictures or posts- which seems to be happening now, so we shall see if I keep facebook or not.