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Western North Dakota , United States
My husband, Allen, and I are high school sweet hearts. We started dating Sep.99'- I kind of followed Allen home one day, and never did leave, is Allen's story. November 02' we were engaged, and on November 22,2003 - we were married. Having been married for 6 years in 2009, marked the 5th year we had been trying to start our family. With the referral of a Fertility Specialist from a friend, our IUI attempts ended up being a complete success despite my doubts. We welcomed our sweet little girl, Hayleigh into the world on June 30,2010 at 6:28am after 37wks and 1 day of gestation. She weighed 7lbs 14oz and was 20 in long. We found out that we were Baby #2 on April Fool's Day- a complete surprise! Reid Allen was born 11/13/12 3:24am 9lbs 8.2oz 21", after 38wks 5 days. Our 3rd baby, Eva Jane, was born on April 19, 2015 after suffering a pregnancy loss June of 2014. We are currently anxiously awaiting baby #4 due 2 days before Eva's birthday, so we are having Irish Twins! Our family is so blessed and happy to be growing!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Wordless Wednesday - Chili and BBQ Lays!

Okay, I really forgot that it is even Wednesday already.. so this is what I have been up to today... Chili with 1/2 white crackers, and 1/2 BBQ Lays chips crushed in the chili. I told Allen that this did not sound half bad, so I decided to try it after he told me I was crazy for eating that. Anyway, it is really yummy, and I have been eating on this crock pot chili for 4 whole days now, and needed something new with it I guess. I have already done the PB&J sandwich with it and grilled cheese also, so I guess I am down to this... Chili should be gone after tomorrow!

what pic I could snap before I finished my awesome chili bowl!

What my poor belly looks like now after chili with lays and Canada Dry... you can also see the tops of Toby's ears right above my belly too!

Monday, February 22, 2010

19 wks Almost Half Way There!!!!

Half way there next week! I cannot believe it! This has all flown by soo fast I am still in denial most of the time. We hopefully get to find out what Baby M is in a few weeks, so, it will be strange, but nice, not calling the baby, Baby M. This all has been really making me realize how fast Baby M will grow when they arrive this summer too. Speaking of Baby M, Baby M has been moving quite a bit for Allen and I lately. They prefer Lic's ice cream put on a show for us. I have felt great except pelvic pain- I found out it is not just round ligament pain, but pelvic pain that I have been experiencing for the last 2 months. I found a clip from a website that explained pelvic pain through pregnancy last night, and, it was an ahhhaahh moment. I just thought that this was all round ligament pain, and that sometime, it would let up, but, unfortunately, it has not.

What is Pelvic Pain during pregnancy?
The joints of the pelvis can cause pain during pregnancy. Pelvic pain causes such pain that movement is limited and the ability to walk is impaired. As your pregnancy progresses, you may develop aches and pains in your hips and pelvic area. This is a normal sign that your pelvic girdle is preparing for childbirth.

What causes pelvic arthropathy?
The pelvis is made up of several bones that are jointed in a way that usually does not allow any movement. Under the influence of hormones produced in pregnancy, the cartilage of the joints becomes softer and allows the bones to move. It can occur towards the end of the first trimester or after delivery.

Many women notice their symptoms for the first time around the middle of their pregnancy. If you experience SPD in one pregnancy, it is more likely that it will reoccur in your next pregnancy.

Symptoms of Pelvic pain during pregnancy
•Pain in the pubic area and groin are the most common symptoms.
•It is common to feel a grinding or clicking in your pubic area and the pain may travel down the inside of the thighs or between your legs.
•The pain is usually made worse by separating your legs, walking, going up or down stairs or moving around in bed.
Self help tips for pelvic pain during pregnancy
•Move little and often. You may not feel the effects of what you are doing until later in the day or after you have gone to bed.
•Rest regularly by sitting reasonably upright with your back well supported.
•Avoid heavy lifting or pushing (supermarket trolleys can be particularly painful).
•When dressing, sit down to put on clothing such as your knickers or trousers. Pull the clothing over your feet and then stand up to pull them up. Don't try to put your legs into trousers, skirts or knickers whilst standing up.
•When climbing stairs, go up them one step at a time. Step up onto one step with your best leg and then bring your other leg to meet it. Repeat with each step.
Care while suffering from Pelvic Pain during pregnancy
•Sleep with a pillow between your knees.
•Rest as much as possible, applying heat to painful areas.
•Talk to your health professional about whether a safe pain reliever might help.
•When lying on your back, propped up on your elbows or a pillow, squeeze a pillow between your knees. This can help realign your pelvic bones and may give you temporary pain relief.
•Wear a prenatal belt or girdle around your hips, under your abdomen, to stabilize your hips.

Everything kind of fits together now, after I have read this. I just thought it was odd that I had been experiencing all kinds of round ligament pain, and everyone else I talked to had not. So, off to google I went. I always like to research everything before I call the doctor. I knew that I was fine, just experiencing more pain was all.

Anyway, I am feeling great other than pelvic pain that comes and goes. It feels like I have had my stomach shrink, since now, I can only eat very little at a time. I have only gained 6lbs through this whole pregnancy, so, I could not be happier about that! My goal is to keep eating as healthy as possible, and not go over the 30lb mark at the end. I am in no way dieting, or fasting. I have just been eating extremely healthy, it is uncanny how much healthier I have wanted to eat now, than before I was pregnant. I am getting pretty tired at the moment, I am going on only 2 hours sleep for the day, and exhausted, so, I will end this once again with Baby M's development progress report.

How your baby's growing:
Your baby's sensory development is exploding! Her brain is designating specialized areas for smell, taste, hearing, vision, and touch. Some research suggests that she may be able to hear your voice now, so don't be shy about reading aloud, talking to her, or singing a happy tune if the mood strikes you.

Your baby weighs about 8 1/2 ounces and measures 6 inches, head to bottom — about the size of a large heirloom tomato. Her arms and legs are in the right proportions to each other and the rest of her body now. Her kidneys continue to make urine and the hair on her scalp is sprouting. A waxy protective coating called the vernix caseosa is forming on her skin to prevent it from pickling in the amniotic fluid.

See what your baby looks like this week.

Note: Every baby develops a little differently — even in the womb. Our information is designed to give you a general idea of your baby's development.

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Think you're big now? You'll start growing even faster in the weeks to come. As a result, you may notice some achiness in your lower abdomen or even an occasional brief, stabbing pain on one or both sides — especially when you shift position or at the end of an active day. Most likely, this is round ligament pain. The ligaments that support your uterus are stretching to accommodate its increasing weight. This is nothing to be alarmed about, but call your practitioner if the pain continues even when you're resting or becomes severe.

You may be noticing some skin changes, too. Are the palms of your hands red? Nothing to worry about — it's from the extra estrogen. You may also have patches of darkened skin caused by a temporary increase in pigment. When these darker patches appear on your upper lip, cheeks, and forehead, they're called chloasma, or the "mask of pregnancy." You may also notice some darkening of your nipples, freckles, scars, underarms, inner thighs, and vulva. That darkened line running from your belly button to your pubic bone is called the linea nigra, or "dark line."

These darkened spots will probably fade shortly after delivery. In the meantime, protect yourself from the sun, which intensifies the pigment changes. Cover up, wear a brimmed hat, and use sunscreen when you're outdoors. And if you're self-conscious about your "mask," a little concealing makeup can work wonders.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

First Trip to Baby Land and Weekend Recap

Well, this weekend was a really busy weekend for us. My sister and her boyfriend drove in from Edwardsville to visit us on Friday. We had a long day in Evansville too. We finally made our first trip into Babies'R'Us, and Allen took the visit a whole lot better than I thought he would. We no more than walked into the store, and he was off. We first went over and looked at strollers. After a while of looking over this store, I could see how this was going to be overwhelming in the future. We browsed the strollers, and moved to the pack and plays, then off to the cribs. They had a Jenny Lynn crib, the same as what my mom used for my sister and I. I was planning on using the same crib, since, it was still in really good shape, and Mom had bought a new mattress for it. Well, that was the plan, until, Allen looked at it, and said, "my baby is not sleeping in that thing!" Ohhhhhh! Why me? So, off he went checking out the other cribs. He finally found a few he was head over heals for. I told him if he wanted to buy one in the future, HE was the one who was to tell my Mom why we were not going to use her crib. He replied that Mom could use it at her house, instead of having to find a small crib to use anyway. UGGGGHHHH! Anyway, from there, we browsed the WHOLE store... I do mean the WHOLE store. We went through the baby clothes, with all of my ewwws and awwws, and then over to the bedding, which, I am sure that I am still using pottery barn for a girl and Cabela's cabin bedding for a boy - no cameo decor for a boy that is. I am not a big fan of the girls decor with the brown and pink for some reason, I think that the Duggars kind of ruined that, from watching their show. Back to shopping, so, we came upon a frame that was for ultrasound photos. I already have a fridge magnet one from Hallmark, and the picture frame from Hallmark, with Baby to Bee on the front. We found a frame that you put the first, second, and third trimester pictures in, all three in a row. It was sooo cute! I ended up carrying it around with me, until, we found the fetel listening system, that records baby's heartbeats, hiccups, etc. It was cheap enough, that we decided to give it a whirl, even though it might not start picking anything up for a few weeks. So, picture frame went back up, and the recorder was a keeper.

We also looked through the bottles, and pacifiers, and everything in between. We kind of have an idea of which bottles we want to use, and a few other things that had been undecided. We then went to check out, and made sure we registered for the rewards card program... kind of like my Hallmark or CVS cards, where you earn money for in the store from the money you spend there. Overall, we both really enjoyed our visit there. It almost made me cry watching Allen get excited over most of everything - it just really surprised me that he had as much fun as he did. He was in complete awww over the new features that some of the things had, and just thought it was a really neat store.

Well, we finally crawled home, I was still going on no sleep, since I had been up at 1 am that morning. I could not believe how well I did shopping and riding the whole time we were gone. It ended up being an 8 hour trip, usually I cannot stand riding for very long without getting stiff and sore. So, this ended up being a really great trip for just the two of us to enjoy.

Saturday morning, Allen had to haul a load of pigs, so, we were both up at 3:30am. I ended up going back to sleep when I got home with Missy and Toby. I really think they were soooo happy to be up on the bed and sleeping with Mama, they never did move, until I was ready to get up. I ended up running errands, and then going over to my mom's for fresh chocolate chip cookies, and visiting with my sister and her boyfriend, who were visiting from Edwardsville. Mom had a hair appointment, so I went ahead with her to keep her company, and ended up getting my hair trimmed while I was at it. I was really impressed with the job the lady did on my hair at Wildhairs. It was quick and a really good job. I have been in severe need of a trim for some time now, so, finally got that off of the list. My mom kept everyone entertained with talking about her bus of a Hummer, and then about her being too old to be a grandma... hmmmm.. she is turning 51 this year, so I think she should be happy she is not turning 41 and becoming a grandma. We all agreed on that. Then she went on about how when I was carrying twins, before we lost one, that she was more disappointed then we were - she wanted a boy and a girl... now she is demanding a girl. I guess I should be happy, since a few people tend to forget what has really went on this whole pregnancy. I hate getting the "they thought it was twins" deal, IT WAS TWINS! It is a lot more common to lose one early on like that than most people think. We were just lucky enough that we had been going very early on every other week, and they did catch that I was carrying twins, until we lost one of them. I am grateful that it is not twins now, I would be a high risk pregnancy this whole time, and would probably be driving to and from Evansville, more than I would like. Anyway, I got off subject. Back to the hair appointment. We laughed and went on about Mom's poor little grandbaby to be, being a boy, and her dressing him up in girl's clothing, since that is 80% percent of the clothes she has bought. (We will not find out what Baby is until the 12th of March) After that, we went back to Mom's house and got ready to go eat lunch, and ended up at the Tin Cup for some hot ham and cheese and peach cobbler. Mom ended up eating half of my fries, since I feel like I have a stomach the size of a pea now. Then, we went past Movie Gallery, since they are going out of business, and checked out the movies they had for sale. I ended up getting Allen a poker game for the playstation, and Marley and Me, for me. I have seen this movie over and over, but, the book was soooo much better! Back when I read the book, I really connected with it, since, Jenny had a miscarriage, and especially over the love they had for Marley. It always makes me cry at the end, when Marley goes, and Owen Wilson finishes the movie with the most touching poem. I placed it at the bottom of the blog for you to read.
After Movie Gallery, I ended up picking Allen back up, ordering a Joe's pizza and bread sticks, and calling it a night.
Anyway, the weekend has been a busy, but, good one, which, I don't think I could ever say that I had a bad weekend, as long as I have Allen with me.

Here is the poem from Marley and Me:

"A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes. Status symbol means nothing to him. A waterlogged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you are rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. It was really quite simple, and yet we humans, so much wiser and more sophisticated, have always had trouble figuring out what really counts and what does not. As I wrote that farewell column to Marley, I realized it was all right there in front of us, if only we opened our eyes. Sometimes it took a dog with bad breath, worse manners, and pure intentions to help us see. How many people in this world can truly make you feel that rare, pure, and extraordinary?"
— John Grogan

I look at our two babies, and I know this is true. I don't think anyone, or anything could ever love me or Allen more, than Missy or Toby.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Wordless Wednesday... The start of our family

I know I talk about our dog babies quite a bit, so, I thought for my first wordless wednesday, I would start it off with them, since they really were the start of our family.

Missy Dog

Toby - in the shared pair of doggles

Both Toby & Missy in their usual places... together on my lap

I know the pictures are not very great of the doggles- they were taken on my blackberry

Monday, February 15, 2010


I have been fighting to get on here and post over the weekend, but, as you can see, it did not get done. I had such a great weekend that I just couldn't break off to spend time on the computer.


Friday started my weekend, with no sleep for me. Allen was already home from the night before. It was soo nice having him home for Friday! I really kind of wish I could go back to Friday and start the whole weekend over again to tell you the truth! I left work and came straight home Friday morning. I let Allen sleep while I got some things done around the house. I got done with the few things that needed to be taken care of, our babies, being one of them, and decided it was time to wake him up. It was kind of bittersweet, we sat in bed and watched tv, talked about what to do for the weekend and decided to get some breakfast going. We sat around for most of the morning, catching up on shows together on our DVR, then, Allen decided we would go into town, so he could get some of his shopping done. With Saturday being my birthday, hemmmm 27th... ughhh, Allen had a plan of what all he needed to get done before then. We stopped past my mom's house and helped her with some more of her chrome she had bought for her Hummer, and then went in, and visited for a little bit. I swear, it is soo funny that I am not the only one having wacky dreams. I think the only thing my mom dreams about now, is what Baby M will look like, and what they will be, boy or girl. Mom, then got out a few presents for my Birthday. I cannot believe how much she really listens to me sometimes. She ended up getting me a Belgian waffle maker! I think I had only mentioned once that I would love to have one back at Christmas. Mom has been working 80 plus hours a week. She is a paramedic at the hospital, and one of their other full time paramedics got fired, so she has had to pick up the extra hours since she is second in command, and there are only 3 or 4 paramedics there now to work with the intermediate and basics. Well, she went out and found a good belgian waffle maker, and packed in Cracker Barrel pancake/waffle mix, and syrup. I hope someday, that no matter how busy I am, I can do things like that. My mom is soo attentive to detail it is amazing how special she makes the holidays, no matter how busy she is. She also pulled out more baby loot, yes, she has bought more, despite repeating over and over how she is waiting until we find out what Baby M is. After we visited with my mom, we went ahead and went to Hallmark, Allen said he might as well take me along. We got to Hallmark, and started in the card section, and I think covered the whole store, by the time we were done. We ended up at the Vera Bradley section, once again... Allen has been bound and determined to get me a Vera Bradley diaper bag. Well, I have been holding out on this, because all of the diaper bags from Vera Bradley I have looked at are all in floral prints, and I am still holding out to see what Baby M is. I really don't want to pack around a floral printed diaper bag, with a baby boy. So, we were about to leave, and Allen found the microfiber line they just got in. He found a really big bag, and asked it it was a diaper bag. The lady helping us, did not have a clue, so, we opened it up, and there was the changing pad inside! So, needless to say, my birthday present was found.

Vera Bradley's Baby Bag in Espresso Microfiber with Zebra Laminated Lining

Anyway, after Hallmark, we visited Allen's grandma and grandpa for a bit, then had to go out to eat with my dad for my birthday. We had a good time, I couldn't believe that I was still going, since I was up at 1am that morning. We got back and visited with Dad for a while, and had some blueberry delight. Now, the next part was the best present I got the whole weekend. Allen and I have thought we have felt Baby M move for the last week. It is not a whole lot, but, I have thought I have felt it, and, Allen has too. But, that night, there was no mistake about it. Baby M was moving soo much that we both felt it! It was soo nice to both Allen and I to be there when Baby M moved like that. I was hoping that the first kicks, etc, we would be lucky if Allen was there. For that, I was soo happy that we were both there to experience together.


Saturday ended being really a great day too. We got to try out the waffle maker. We mainly relaxed most of the day, and decided to go to Vincennes to Montanna Mikes, Lowes, and Lics. We first went past Lowes, and picked up a few things we needed, we got over to Montanna Mikes by 3pm our time, 4pm their time, just in time actually, the place had begun to fill up already. We got out of there, after having a great supper together, and then, went past Lics to stock up on ice cream. Well, Allen decided he was going inside Lics for once, and I knew what was going on. We walked in, and Allen went straight over to the cake section. We ended up picking out an ice cream cake, and leaving with 2 quarts of chocolate ice cream each - that should last us a couple of weeks. We got back home, by 5pm our time, and relaxed the whole night, just the two of us. We just sat there and talked and watched tv. We mainly talked about how fast this pregnancy has went... in a little less than 2 weeks, I will already be 5 months!


Sunday, was spent with Allen's grandparents. We ate out for lunch and went back to their house to try the ice cream cake. It was delicious! We ended up watching part of the Daytonna 500- until they red flagged the race to fix the track. I ended up taking a nap, until Allen woke me up, and we went home to relax the rest of the evening. The good thing was this weekend, I felt sooo much better! I got over sinus infection #2, that I got from my allergies. I had not thrown up in over 3 weeks... until last night. I gaged, and I guess that I was hungry when it happened, so, it was on.

One thing is sure, I had such a great Birthday and Valentines Day, I don't think I could not have asked for more!

Today, I am now 18 wks along! As I mentioned earlier, I cannot believe how fast this has went. I think this is partially from waiting sooo long for it to happen, now, that we are here, it still is not settling in yet.

So, with all of that said, here is what Baby M is up to this week!

How your baby's growing:
Head to rump, your baby is about 5 1/2 inches long (about the length of a bell pepper) and he weighs almost 7 ounces. He's busy flexing his arms and legs — movements that you'll start noticing more and more in the weeks ahead. His blood vessels are visible through his thin skin, and his ears are now in their final position, although they're still standing out from his head a bit. A protective covering of myelin is beginning to form around his nerves, a process that will continue for a year after he's born. If you're having a girl, her uterus and fallopian tubes are formed and in place. If you're having a boy, his genitals are noticeable now, but he may hide them from you during an ultrasound.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Baby Move that Body

Friday was a long day for both Allen and I. I had to leave work at 6am to go and get Allen over at Ferdinand, IN. Allen had to leave his truck there for some maintenance work to be done, so I had to pick him up. We went ahead and went home the rural way, Princeton to Vincennes, and then home. We went ahead and stopped by Long John Silver's on the way, and picked up some chocolate ice cream from Lic's to make the trip a win win situation. We hurried back and picked up the two rug rats, and went straight out to Allen's grandparents to visit with Allen's great-aunt and uncle, Linda and Joe. We ended up putting together another puzzle, which amazes me that no matter how much I tend to forget throughout the day, I can work a puzzle pretty fierce. I was getting soo good at getting the puzzles put together so quickly, that we were actually thinking about going out to the store and picking up a few more puzzles.

We finally just left Missy and Toby at Raymond and Una's while we went in for my 16 wks check up. Everything went great. I actually remembered to go back and give them a sample this time. When I got back, the nurse checked my blood pressure, and then Sandy came in to check Baby M's heartbeat. Let me just say Baby M is a very active little baby! Baby M has completely moved from way over on my right side to just under and left of my belly button, conveniently above my two little stretchmarks. We could hear the heart beat, which had graduated from a swishy lub lub, to the sound of a knocking on a hard surface noise. What was funny was, Baby M would not hold still enough to pick up the beats per minute on the fetal doppler. I ended up having to almost try to hold my breath, and not move at all, long enough for the doppler to pick up the beat. It seemed like when I breathed, the doppler would not pick up the heart beat, so, I tried to pretty much hold my breath long enough to get a reading. Sandy stood by and counted at the same time. The weird thing was, we could hear the heart beat loud and clear the whole time, unless, Sandy barely moved. She would then, have to find Baby M again. We all kept talking to Baby M, telling them to "hold still".. like they would actually know what we were saying. Sandy ended up counting 130 beats/min., and said she might have been off a few. They went ahead and measured me, and then, we sat and talked. I asked about the second trimester testing, and if I HAD to do it. Allen and I had already discussed this on the way home from Vincennes, and decided that if it was not necessary, we would not do it. The test would be extra lab work, and they are not 100% accurate. Plus, if the baby did have down syndrome, or spina bifida, it should show up on the future ultrasounds. We both agreed we would never be able to abort the baby even if it did have anything wrong with it, despite how hard it was to even get to where we are now. Baby M will be loved deeply no matter healthy or not. I really just think that if we did know something was wrong, I know it would make the rest of the pregnancy not as happy, I would just be worrying about things to come, and add extra unneeded anxiety. Since, I am not over the age of thirty... turning 27 this Saturday, our risk of birth defects is lower to some respects. I also checked around and found the reasons why a person should really have the second trimester quad screening done.

They are:
1. Have a family history of birth defects
2. Are 35 years or older
3. Used possible harmful medications or drugs during pregnancy
4. Have diabetes and use insulin
5. Had a viral infection during pregnancy
6. Have been exposed to high levels of radiation

The last time I checked, I had none of these, or was exposed to any of them either.

Anyway, back to the appointment. After asking about the second trimester testing, we decided to opt out. We decided that with the risks being lower, and just because we would keep Baby M no matter what happens, it was not worth messing with.

After the appointment, we went back out to Allen's grandparents, since we were going out to eat with them and Linda and Joe anyway. When we got back, I asked how the two babies did. Now, Missy is Allen's grandma's baby when we are over there, and doesn't always listen to us. It was funny to find out that she sat by the door and cried the whole time we were gone. Toby was the one that was okay. I guess it makes sense, since, Missy was our first baby after all.

Anyway, we went out to eat, and went home. I did not sleep very good at all, all weekend. I had a stiff neck, and woke up every few hours. Saturday, we had Surf and Turf with our neighbors, Jeff and Reagan. Needless to say, I think we could have been eating Red Lobster and not known the difference. Allen is such a great cook. He did all of the cooking, and helped me straighten up the house. Everything went great. Sunday, I had a sinus headache all day. We ended up getting Joe's pizza and wings from Pizza Hut for the Super Bowl. I watched all but the final quarter, woke up right after the game, and, then, went to bed. After all, I had to get back up and go to work at 1am. Anyway, I had a pretty long weekend, as you can see! I am sure next weekend will be the same, since Allen and I are celebrating my birthday and Valentines day too.

Well, you know what is next...

Baby Center with how Baby M is developing this week:

How your baby's growing:
Your baby's skeleton is changing from soft cartilage to bone, and the umbilical cord — her lifeline to the placenta — is growing stronger and thicker. Your baby weighs 5 ounces now (about as much as a turnip), and she's around 5 inches long from head to bottom. She can move her joints, and her sweat glands are starting to develop.

See what your baby looks like this week.

Note: Every baby develops a little differently — even in the womb. Our information is designed to give you a general idea of your baby's development.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Sisters in Infertility

I just wanted to send some prayers up for someone special to me today. A good friend of mine, who is suffering from PCOS, and who has been trying to conceive, just miscarried earlier this week. This was the result after their third IUI attempt. I know what it feels like to get that positive pregnancy test, just to miscarry a few days later. Going through that, makes you feel like you have just had your heart ripped out of your chest, and that nothing will ever make you feel happy again. So, if everyone could, please, send up a prayer for this person and her husband. I know now, they are having to go back in and do some testing to see if there is anything else contributing to the pregnancy not being sustained. At least I know she is going to a great doctor, the same one who blessed Allen and I with our pregnancy.

If everyone could pray for that couple to get past this and for everything to check out on the testing I am sure it would mean a lot to them. No one should ever have to go through any of this!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

What the heck am I thinking? Bradley Who?

What the heck am I thinking? Why am I even considering this?? The Bradley Method. I know, it sounds kind of weird, some of the things they do with this, but, the more I hear, the more I think... "I can do that!" We will see I am sure! I ordered a book, Childbirth the Natural Way, The Bradley Way. I guess just the thought of not being able to get up after having the baby, and having a catheter put in, after an epidural, is not at all what I want... especially the catheter! I cannot even begin to tell you why, but, all I know is that I DO NOT WANT ONE! Let me pee on myself! Really, I would rather! I know that sounds gross, but, I really do not want some stupid tube up my hoohoo after all of that! I do realize that if a C-section is necessary, I will have to have one. It is really funny how my views on giving birth have changed since now, I know there is no turning back now. I am really dreading the stupid IV too! I know, I know, they only will give you things you need to make everything better. I have never had an IV, and for some reason, I am more scared of the IV and catheter than the actual birth. Weird, I know. I am sure it probably will not be much of anything. I guess my actual birth plan for now, is to go as long as possible without drugs, trying some of the techniques from the Bradley Method, and if I can go without the drugs, than great, if not, I tried.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Mondays, Hormones, and the Cleaning Bug

Happy Monday!!??? Ehhh, what am I even saying? I hate Mondays! It seems like it takes forever to get to the weekend, and then when the weekend finally does get here, it is gone after only a day's time it seems. Well, at least this week should be a week to look forward to. I have my 16 wk check up on Friday, and get to hear Baby M's heartbeat! I absolutely LOVE this! It is proof to me that I am not just getting fat in the middle! I have been more productive lately, and, I am actually getting my butt up and around the house more... the house is definitely much more cleaner! Yay to that! My round ligament pain is either getting to be less of a pain, or I am just used to it now. I finally got to deep clean the kitchen last night for once. Usually, I can only take about an hour and a half of working on anything, last night, I spent more than that I know. So, progress is being made at least. I do feel much better! I think I took all of the mess I could take, with me, well, "old" me being a clean freak, I finally broke that part of me out again. It felt sooo good!

I have noticed my obsession with food has gotten pretty fierce. Missy and Toby still beg for food. Before I was pregnant, I shared with anybody, no matter how much food I had, or how hungry I was. Now, I don't care who you are, my food is MY FOOD! Allen gets a kick out of this. I feel bad about not wanting to share, but, I am starving all of the time now! I swear I have to eat every few hours, mainly snack on fruit, but, I have to eat, or I get sick feeling and a headache. The one thing that drives me nuts now is that no matter how hungry or starving I am, I can only eat a small portion at a time.

I have noticed lately that my skin on my stomach is getting much tighter. I think this is partially due to me carrying higher. Allen and I are both betting that my belly button will "pop". I even got my first stretch mark! Errrhhhh! Already??? I have been using palmer's belly and everywhere lotion everywhere at least twice a day. Allen said that he cannot tell that I have gained anywhere but my stomach and boobs. I am already looking to get another sleep bra... mine is getting tighter and everyone is just not wanting to stay in their place anymore. I guess I can't really complain about a few stretch marks, after all, it is a miracle that we are even having a baby.

Allen and I went out to eat Saturday, and couldn't believe who all we ran into at the steakhouse. It is amazing how people act. We ran into two guys that were pretty good friends with Allen in high school. We were all in the same class. Well, they just happened to show up at the steakhouse with their wives when we were getting ready to leave. Allen and I went over to say hello, before we left. Now, keep in mind, Allen was in one of the two's wedding just over a year and a half ago, and the other, used to be a pretty good friend too. Now, I get along with anyone, except the other friend's wife. She is not a nice person, and is very controlling of her husband. Needless to say, they do not get along, and just mainly fight all of the time. While we stood there saying hello, no one never once congratulated Allen, or said much of anything to him. The wife that I do not get along with, went out of her way to slide her chair out, and looked me up and down like I was on display. A part of me... a very mean part of me, wanted to tell her, "yeah, it is sad, I am four months pregnant, and you are just as big in the stomach as I am." (She never lost her baby fat from a year and a half ago). Old spiteful me, with preggo hormones lashing out. But, instead, I just smiled and acted as nice as possible. Kill them with kindness, right? So, that is what we did. I am just grateful, that I did snag Allen, and he is at least twice the man, they could ever think about being. I don't understand why people cannot be happy for one another. Especially after going down a rough road to get to where they are now. It does make me grateful that I have such a loving husband, who is kind to everyone, no matter how much he dislikes them. I just wish that the couple, with the wife I don't get along with, could have as happy of a marriage, as Allen and I do. - that has all been bothering me just a tad.. can't you tell?

Well, you know what is coming, Baby Center update for Baby M.. 4 months today! It is going by faster and faster!

How your baby's growing:
Get ready for a growth spurt. In the next few weeks, your baby will double his weight and add inches to his length. Right now, he's about the size of an avocado: 4 1/2 inches long (head to rump) and 3 1/2 ounces. His legs are much more developed, his head is more erect than it has been, and his eyes have moved closer to the front of his head. His ears are close to their final position, too. The patterning of his scalp has begun, though his locks aren't recognizable yet. He's even started growing toenails. And there's a lot happening inside as well. For example, his heart is now pumping about 25 quarts of blood each day, and this amount will continue to increase as your baby continues to develop.