Night Time Tidbits, pregnancy, friends, toddlers....

Well, tonight, I cannot sleep, once again. So, I'm anticipating a busy week ahead- Allen will be home in the morning and be here all week, I am guessing my blogging will probably be MIA for the week.

Today, Hayleigh decided it would be fun to decorate a few walls by herself, with my ink pen.... it has not all come off yet, and I'm thinking this week, while organizing the garage, I will be looking for the extra paint left over to touch up the walls- I scrubbed soo much on them, the paint was starting to come off. I usually do try really hard to keep ink pens out of reach and sight for Hayleigh, but this time she crawled up on top of the bar stool, and got the diaper bag off of the middle of the bar, got into my wallet, took the pen, and $10 in cash - the pen and the $$ have not been located yet, but the cap has been found. While cleaning up the mess, Hayleigh comes up to me jabbering about her work, I get firm with her, telling her just how mad mommy is at her for what she done, and she is not to do that again. She pouted, and rubbed her eyes, like she was crying- this is a new thing if I get after her, I can tell that mommy really has hurt her feelings. She was fine after a few minutes, and of course, it kills me for her to be like that- smart girl... Anyway, I did hug her and tell her I love her, she then proceeded to show me 2 other walls she wrote on as well. I did ask her where the pen and the money were, but she would not budge on those. So, sometime this week, the toys will be gone through, and my closet- the last two places I think she was after the crime, and I did find the cap in the play room by the toys- I just didn't want to let her out of my sight again. Funny- she did this all while I was in the kitchen, and she was just on the other side of the wall. I thought she was just rubbing the night light against the wall. Ohh well... I'm sure there are worse things to come.

Besides that, and fighting with my dishwasher and washing machine about them not working correctly- my landlord will be getting another nice message about them again this week... We mowed the back yard tonight, filled the pond up with water again- a weekly must, and did laundry. I've tried to get the house clean and ready for Allen to see, since he hasn't seen it with everything put up and organized yet.

I'm getting really excited about our first doctors appointment on Wednesday- hopefully we can find out what we are having! I'm rounding out in the middle now, and you know to tell you the truth, if I could be this pregnant all of the time, I would be completely happy! No nausea, no aches or pains really, I can still be sort of limber, I look pregnant- not just fat, I can eat just about anything I want, and I can feel the baby move. It is great! When I'm this pregnant, I feel soo much more beautiful. There is just something about being nice and round, while growing a baby, that makes you feel soo good- must be the glow or something... Anyway, I love looking like this- no need to suck it in, or think dear God, I look awful, and just fat- no baby in there= no excuse. Well, I have an excuse, and it is a really good one. So, I would love to be like this all of the time- let the belly all hang out! lol. I realize that this time around, since I was soo stretched out with having Hayleigh- I carried her high, that this time around I would show a lot earlier than I did with her. I'm to the point now that I don't care. I'm happy, the baby is healthy, and Hayleigh is happy. Allen is also happy, least I not forget, and I'm just trying to cherish this all, because this is 99.9% the last baby we will have. That makes me really sad when I think about it. Makes me feel old, not thinking of having more babies... I want to have sanity, and I know me, and I know that being a mother of more than 2- would really be pushing me thin... I do not have the patience for that many, even though we originally wanted to have 3. But, I know I would be a better mom if we just stopped at 2. I'll have a 16wk photo on Wednesday, with Allen here to take a picture for me. Don't judge me! I'm happy and fat, and round... I'm probably carrying a potential 9 lb baby... I'm thinking this one will be big, and right on time- probably with the help of being induced will be my guess. I know after the baby gets here, I have to take care of myself, and I will get into better shape than I did after Hayleigh- hopefully like I was right before Hayleigh.

Did I mention just how excited I am that Allen will be here in the morning??? I know! It seems like he has been gone for a month this time! These past few weeks dragged on and on.. and I think it was just about as hard as not seeing him for almost 2 months. I know it will get better once we get into a routine, and we meet more people- which I'm excited to say, I've meet another couple... well, kind of . I meet the husband, and have been texting the wife. Long story is all I have to say, but Allen will have a hunting buddy, to help him with elk hunting, and everything else out here, and I will have a fellow mom friend with an 18 mo little boy, that is in the same boat I am in here- a long way from home, no friends or family here, our husbands both work for the same company, and just someone else to relate to. I'm excited about meeting her in person, but from what I can tell by texts, she is a lot like me too. Meeting people, really helps with being here alone most of the time. Most of the time, I am not motivated to be out doing all kinds of stuff, because I know come 4-5 months from now, I will be soo busy, wishing I had the chance to lounge around, being sleep deprived, and just frazzled is what my guess is. I'm just thankful that this baby will be coming at the end of fall, beginning of winter time- we will be cooped up in the house anyway, so, I won't feel soo bad not going outside with Hayleigh all of the time, or her missing out on doing activities, because we are stuck at home with the new baby. I'm scared of taking a newborn out with a two and a half year old. I doubt if we will go many places, unless Allen is with us. I can already imagine it all now- and it is scary. I know people do it all of the time, but, I feel safe, secure, and comfortable at home, and that is probably where we will stay most of the time.

I know we will be okay- it will just take time to adjust to it all, just like it is right now. Rome wasn't built in a day.....