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Western North Dakota , United States
My husband, Allen, and I are high school sweet hearts. We started dating Sep.99'- I kind of followed Allen home one day, and never did leave, is Allen's story. November 02' we were engaged, and on November 22,2003 - we were married. Having been married for 6 years in 2009, marked the 5th year we had been trying to start our family. With the referral of a Fertility Specialist from a friend, our IUI attempts ended up being a complete success despite my doubts. We welcomed our sweet little girl, Hayleigh into the world on June 30,2010 at 6:28am after 37wks and 1 day of gestation. She weighed 7lbs 14oz and was 20 in long. We found out that we were Baby #2 on April Fool's Day- a complete surprise! Reid Allen was born 11/13/12 3:24am 9lbs 8.2oz 21", after 38wks 5 days. Our 3rd baby, Eva Jane, was born on April 19, 2015 after suffering a pregnancy loss June of 2014. We are currently anxiously awaiting baby #4 due 2 days before Eva's birthday, so we are having Irish Twins! Our family is so blessed and happy to be growing!

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Sleepless in Colorado..

It is now 2 am, and I just cannot sleep... Why you ask?? Reid fussing and crying? Nope, Hayleigh sick with the flu? Nope- we are both over that one.. Up talking to Allen?? Nope. I've spent literally the past 4 hours looking at and editing pictures of my family. Today, I got to pick up our pictures from our session with Santa from a week ago. Our storyboard isn't in yet, so I still have 3 more pictures I have yet to see again, and I am soo excited! Here are the 2 so far...

How are these my kids??? I keep smiling, tearing up, and thinking the same thing over and over again...HOW did we get here? In a little less than 2 short months, I will be 30, we are done having kids- so I keep telling myself, and I have all of these pictures of our family that we had wanted so bad staring back at me. I am beyond grateful for them, each and every day, even more so after what happened a week ago. I guess when you want something soo bad, and it takes soo long to get it, when it is finally there, you are still in denial that it has happened.

What everyone older than me says about time going by faster and faster, the older you get, is very true from what I have learned from my 20's... It seems just like I was just 21 last year, took a nap, and I'm now 29, with 2 kids, living in Colorado... To be honest, that scares me to think how my 30's are going to go.

Even though life is hard, it is nice to take a break some days to really see what is most important to you in life, and what makes life worth living...all of those late nights when the baby wouldn't go to sleep, or they were up sick and just wanted for you to hold them tight, to the good nights with a hug, and a kiss, and Mommy, I Love you....

Every time that Carter's commercial comes I bawl.. It is the one about the little girl being born on a cold September day, and the first night home was a doozy,, but you got the hang of it, and together we grew and grew. Some days were fussy, but other days were all smiles. And even now, when you hold my hand, I hold it right back. Because the day I became yours, you became mine. All I see when I watch that commercial is Hayleigh, and now Reid... but, mainly Hayleigh. I think that is every new mom and dad in that commercial.

Anyway, I'm a total sap, and I know it, and I don't care... I cry about the little things in life that Allen just looks at me like I'm a hormonal hot mess... Even at midnight mass in church back home, I tear up. I can't explain why, I just do. So many times years before that I sat there praying for our family we now have.

I realize there are days when I'm ready to pull my hair out...especially this past night. Two fussy kids- with one screaming his head off from gas pains to be exact. But, it is all worth every sleepless night, or gray hair I end up getting over all of this. Seeing them both when they are total angels, makes every moment soo much sweeter~

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