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Western North Dakota , United States
My husband, Allen, and I are high school sweet hearts. We started dating Sep.99'- I kind of followed Allen home one day, and never did leave, is Allen's story. November 02' we were engaged, and on November 22,2003 - we were married. Having been married for 6 years in 2009, marked the 5th year we had been trying to start our family. With the referral of a Fertility Specialist from a friend, our IUI attempts ended up being a complete success despite my doubts. We welcomed our sweet little girl, Hayleigh into the world on June 30,2010 at 6:28am after 37wks and 1 day of gestation. She weighed 7lbs 14oz and was 20 in long. We found out that we were Baby #2 on April Fool's Day- a complete surprise! Reid Allen was born 11/13/12 3:24am 9lbs 8.2oz 21", after 38wks 5 days. Our 3rd baby, Eva Jane, was born on April 19, 2015 after suffering a pregnancy loss June of 2014. We are currently anxiously awaiting baby #4 due 2 days before Eva's birthday, so we are having Irish Twins! Our family is so blessed and happy to be growing!

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Something to Smile about

Okay, I promised myself I had to write something good, and cheerful this week. This week has been hard,  people have been moody, I've missed Allen like crazy, and I've really felt alone for the most part, and have worried soo much that heartburn has been set in almost every day. But, I've got so much accomplished this week. I am proud that I am making headway, and here is the list to prove it!
1. I've made progress on my sinus/allergy sickness. After feeling like I was in hyper speed sleeping from taking Allegra D- I stopped and have felt much better. I think the reason I've been soo tired the past few days is all due from hardly sleeping at all while on that medicine. Plus on it is I am not hacking, spitting, blowing my nose, or peeing my pants from coughing soo hard I almost throw up. TMI I know.

2. I have 5 houses or so for Allen to call and go look at next week when he is off work, and goes to Grand Junction to check it out. I am a little more excited about Grand Junction area more than I was the Billings area, mainly due to I found more houses available to rent in GJ, than in Billings.

3. I attacked the closet under the stairway, and WON! We have a HUGE closet under the stairway that is in the entry of our house (Bi-level house). Anyway, it was full- and I do mean FULL of Hayleigh's old baby clothes, clothes from my Aunt, a few swings, and that was pretty much it. When the door to the closet was opened, I had 1 foot of space to put a trash can in, to hold the dog's food -(to keep Hayleigh out of it). Now, I have everything down to 4-5 plastic totes, and have sorted out of the old clothes, and baby equipment/toys stuff to put in my first garage sale for this Saturday morning.

4. I got Hayleigh's last wellness checkup scheduled, and her first series of shots scheduled. We waited until she was almost two and talking- I've talked about how important this was to us before, but I wanted to get her measles, mumps, rubella shot in before we moved.

5. I actually got to mow part of the yard- not the whole thing, but I'm getting there. It was soo nice to actually get some yard therapy in last night.

6. I've officially pinned my last day of work to the 20th, and have put my notice and resignation letter in. I'm scared about not working for the next few years, but kind of relieved in a way not to have to get up at 5am for a while. I know Hayleigh will still have us up early, and she will be starting preschool soon, so the "sleeping in" won't last long.

7. Spent time with friends and family. I can actually say I've had the chance to sit and visit with a few friends, and some family this past week for at least an hour a piece. I cannot tell you just how good this feels. When I get home from work, Hayleigh is usually cranky, and ready for nap, so I've gotten used to taking a nap with her- not a good thing. Now, I have to have a nap too! Anyway, the rest of the afternoon is spent procrastinating packing stuff, and doing much of anything but relaxing, or doing laundry. I can't help I'm more of a night owl. But, when I'm not doing something, I start to get blue... I'm sad Allen is not here with us- this weekend he has been gone for 4wks, and will be gone for 4 more wks before we get to see him. I'm sad about moving- Jason Aldean has a new song out called, "Fly Over States". It gets me teary eyed every time. Just not having something to really occupy my mind or time gets me this way. I really need to pack stuff up, but I just don't have the heart or energy to do it right now. I've even gotten to where I can't listen to many songs on the radio, or even my George Strait cd without tearing up, missing Allen. It has been HARD- and I do not know how army families do it, you just have to do it. I keep thinking of 4wks from now, when we do get to see Allen, I keep picturing me running to him, and plowing him down to the ground. He is my best friend, and no one can fill that spot. He will always be my best friend, I just wish that some of my other "best friends" out there could be there for me just as much as he is. I know that moving will cut a lot of my ties with my friends. For some, it already pretty much has- and this really makes me sad. Every time I hear Tracy Lawrence's song, "You Find Out WHO Your Friends Are", I sit and think to my self just how very true that song is. Movies also make this whole problem worse than the songs do.

8. After having a really stressful day with everything fighting me, I did manage to get Hayleigh's picture order in. I've been putting it off to get all of the orders from everyone, and also because I just have not felt like doing it. It's kind of like putting up seasonal decor- I have to be in the mood to do it, or it just does not go like I want it to.

So, this week has ended on a good note to say the least. My sister and her boyfriend will be here tomorrow evening to visit with, we will eat at Joes, and the garage sale will hopefully be a success on Saturday, then on Sunday- I GET TO SLEEP IN!! Hayleigh will be spending the night with Grandma Sue, and I have been looking forward to a peaceful night to myself all week! So, tonight, I will get Hayleigh to bed, have a nice glass of wine to calm my nerves, and get some sleep tonight for one of my last 3 Fridays at UPS.

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