Dodging

I realize I haven't been on here much at all. I've kind of been dodging writing about what all is going on, mainly because it's nothing I really want to write about. Things are in limbo here, and it's driving me completely bat S**t crazy! Sorry, but that is how I feel right now.. almost at my whit's end. I swear that we have been back and forth, and back again on what is going to happen, or on what is going on. I have a lot of love hate relationships right now, and all I want is peace and quiet along with space to myself.
We are currently still staying with my mom- HOPEFULLY in a month we will be settled or be settling into our own place. The subject of our own place is the thing that is going back and forth and is the whole limbo deal right now. I'm mainly just ready for my routine to be restored, and not to feel so frazzled out anymore. There are some things that have been decided that I cannot say yet- but a big fat ugly storm is coming, and I would just rather bury my head in the sand right now, and wait for someone to pat me on the shoulder and tell me it's all over, and go on with my happy self. EHHHHT! That's not going to happen. My world is upside down right now, along with Allen and the poor kids, but I know I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, and things will be much better soon!

Reid turned 4 months old yesterday! 4 MONTHS already!! Makes me want to cry sometimes, but no matter how sad I get over both him and Hayleigh growing up more and more, the more excited I get over the new things we are able to do. Next year, Allen and I are planning on taking them to Disney World. I'm really thinking it will be a just the 4 of us kind of thing. I think we would be able to enjoy it all a little more relaxed than if we had family with us.

Last night, I attempted to go on a night on the town by myself. I have been chomping on the bit to see Oz the Great and Powerful... well, after my mom canceled on me last minute on babysitting the kids, I made arrangements for Allen's grandparents to watch the kids. NO Problem right? WRONG....After 35 minutes into the movie, I get a call. I had my phone on vibrate for just in case... well, Reid had been crying and screaming for the past 45 minutes - basically 20 minutes after I left him happy go lucky. Allen's grandma was trying everything to make him happy, and to calm down, and told me to call back in five minutes to check back. Well, I did, and had to leave the movie. Poor guy was constipated. I ended up having to give him a few enemas, and that made everything all better. It's funny that since we have been back in Illinois, and Reid has had the chance to show everyone his upset side, they understand how I felt all by myself for 2 weeks at a time with both kids, and don't think having a glass of wine a night was so terrible after all. Now, Reid is not like that much anymore- but he was last night. Hopefully I can see the rest of that move on Sunday while I leave both kids with my mom.

I just know that in the upcoming few weeks, there will be hell to pay, and I'm not at all looking forward to it. I'll keep everyone updated the best I can.

On a good note, here are a few of the pics from Reid's 3 month pictures that we had taken from Jessica at Jessica Benson Photography~