Mother's Day for Mom to Be... is this really happening to me now?

Today has made me kind of numb in a way. I have just been sitting back and enjoying the last leg of this trip, mainly enjoying going to the mailbox anymore really. Everyday, there is a new dress, or shoes for Hayleigh in the mail. I really do love waddling down to the mailbox each day to see what else has finally come. The numb feeling came to me today, I got another dress in the mail, red trimmed with sail boats all over it.. gymboree of course. I sat there looking at the dress, just thinking how soon it will be and Hayleigh will be wearing this. Then, Mother's Day is Saturday. I can celebrate this year without just having dogs as my children. Everything is just surreal lately. We stopped past my dad's house this evening to pick up a package for me to take in to work with me. Dad's wife, Mary, had a card waiting for me. It was a Happy Mother's Day card for Mom-to-Be. It was sooo sweet! We also sat and talked about how soon it will be and Hayleigh will be here, going on about how small the dress was, and what we were anxious about. I am still trying to get used to the idea of having something besides my purse to pack around from here on out in a short amount of time. I just really am still in denial about being where we are right now. I was talking about this to Heather, a lady I work with, this morning. She just went on about how much I had popped out in the last week, since Hayleigh has switched to being more vertical, instead of horizontal in my belly. She then went on about how fast this has all went. I only have 6 more weeks at work, and 8 more weeks until my due date. I was going on about how bittersweet this all was. I had been looking forward to being pregnant soo much, it is really going by faster than I would like for it to. It is not that I am not wanting to have a newborn yet, I really cannot wait until she gets here, but, I had spent soo much time wanting just to be pregnant, and it is almost over already. I was just getting used to being in the first trimester, and now, I am already in the third. I am going to the doctor every two weeks, which really makes me anxious, and I am already having to plan around the big "D" day.