7 wks!!

Baby McCann at 7wks!




Well, we have finally made it to 7wks! I had another doctor's appointment on Monday morning. At least I did not have to go alone for this one! Allen and my mom went along, and I have to say it was very strange in a way. I had to do an internal ultrasound- I really don't like them and this was like the 10th one. We get back in the room for the ultrasound, and I have to strip.. both Allen and my mom just stand there looking at me.. I am about to start asking for some music and some dollar bills at this point it is soo ackward. So, we wait, and wait, and wait... finally, Dr. Gentry comes in with the ultrasound tech I absolutely cannot stand! They find the first baby right off the bat with no problems.. I ask about the second, so they search, and search, but cannot find it. Dr. Gentry made his second apperance since I had started going to the clinic in July, it was really weird to see him. I just really missed Tarrah, my usual gal I have there, she was on a day off for once. Anyway, Dr. Gentry said that with twins, it is very easy to lose one, especially when they both try to attach too close to one another. So, we zero in on the one baby. I can hear Mom and Allen sigh, we are all disappointed.. especially my mom. We sit and watch the baby's heartbeat, and they then try to get it up on the speaker so we can listen to it. The heartbeat was just not loud enough just yet, all they kept bringing up was my heartbeat, according to the stupid tech lady. I ask about my ovaries.. at the last appointment, I was instructed no intercourse, no meds. No intercourse because there was a chance I could get pregnant again is what they told me. This time they say that my left ovary is swelled some, but that is because of all of the hormones, and I probably conceived from that ovary. I ask about intercourse, and remind them what was instructed at the last appointment.. Stupid says, ohh no, you cannot get pregnant once you are already pregnant... BULL! I have seen stories on tv and on the internet. And, to top that off, she says the only we were to avoid intercourse after the last appointment was for my comfort.. What a crock!! I told them at the last appointment that our 6 year wedding anniversary was that weekend.. I could suffer if it was up to me! I swear I really really hate that lady!

Anyway, I go back in two weeks, and then I should be released. SO, now for the hunt for the OB.. I still have no idea where we will be going.. Effingham is out of network for my insurance as of this year, so that shoots my plans for that. My mom is really pushing for Olney... I just really do not know about that.. there are some things that cannot be said with out really getting into mud boots to discuss about the reason I do not want to go to Olney, but, I just don't.

Today is the first day I have felt good... usually I lie around all day feeling "hung over". I have yet to get sick, so hopefully I am about out of the clear now.

We are still kind of bummed about not having both babies on the way.. but, after all that we have been through, one is a great blessing to have! We still do not know if this will be an only child now, or if we will try again someday.. only time will tell.

I just hope that our families can get together and be good.. I don't need any other "kids" to watch that is. I am sure that everything will be fine, it is just a lot harder with both of our parents being divorced, and those parents not speaking to each other, or being civil... I wish that they could see things from our perspective to say the least. We have to be careful not to look like we "favor" someone over everyone else.. it is just like walking on eggshells to me.