Underdog

Well, today was a day for no sleep... The phone rang off the hook today. Just different people wanting to catch up, and me just wanting to sleep. So, the one call I screened ended up being Dr. Gentry's office- my RE called me from a different # on my cell phone, and I did not recognize it, so, with me being tired, I let it go to voicemail. My RE said they have reviewed my chart from this last cycle that didn't stick. The next cycle we choose to do, I will be taken down from 75 to 60 of follistim, and kept on femera, just like the last cycle. I went ahead and called my RE back, and left a message on my concern for me being put on estrogen after the next IUI, and asked for the details on when I need to call, for next cycle date we choose to do.

I am sooo not looking forward to all of the injections and pills once again... at least I know what to expect for the next round. At least this time when we video the first injection, I will not be whining, or scared.. it will be just like plucking eyebrows.. hurts a little, but nothing out of the ordinary anymore.

It is still up in the air on when we will actually do the next cycle. A part of me wants to wait until after Christmas- enough stress through the holidays.. and the other part of me really wants to do it next month. If we wait until after Christmas, I can hunt this fall. Allen has decided that I am not doing ANYTHING at all for the next cycle but lie around like a bump on a log. NO climbing a tree stand, just to sit and watch, no sitting in the cold, no going up and down stairs more than a few times a day, and the list goes on, and on....

Only time will truly tell what we are going to do. We plan on keeping the next cycle a hush hush thing. This last went smooth, except for the end when all of the drama started, following me miscarrying. The drama came from someone who knew that we were in the middle of the cycle, but, did not even consider it when it came time for them to throw a fit over nothing. So, I am going to keep to myself, and be a hermit for the next cycle. Until the next cycle though, I am unrestricted from lashing out and bitch slapping someone. lol... like that will really happen, but, you never know.

On a different note, go figure, I have a wisdom tooth trying to come down again. This stupid tooth has dropped, started to break through, then went back up, waited 6 months, and done the same thing over. Needless to say, I am fully expecting it to be a problem when the time comes for us to go through another cycle. Yes, I am a big baby, and do not want to have it cut out quite yet. So, it will just be in limbo until I finally decide I can't take it anymore.

I am just kind of waiting for this all to work, and the birds start chirping, and the world to start smiling... It just feels like the race has once again started, and we blew an engine or something... now we are out of this race. Everyone loves the underdog though?? right?? So, with that being said, this next round, I will be the underdog that has to win.