Life Happened

I do remember saying that we were done with kids, but isn't life funny. Allen and I had no intentions of having anymore, but if one popped up before he made supervisor and he got in to get fixed, it would be okay. Well... that is where we are now sitting. A BUN IS IN THE OVEN...

It's funny when we first got married, we both agreed we wanted to have 3 kids. After Hayleigh was born, and I got pregnant with Reid and we found out he was a boy, we agreed 2 was enough. One of each. Now, here we sit dreaming of what this baby will be when it gets here. I would have never have thought that this would happen. It took us 6 years of trying then having to go to a fertility clinic and do not 1 round, but 2 rounds of fertility treatment and drugs. Back then we could have ended up with 4 babies on each of the rounds of IUI we went through that we got Hayleigh out of. Now, here we are on our third pregnancy, the second one without having any help and I feel partially on the fence now. Like I've said before- the infertility camp has always been my home. Now, I've kind of been booted out of that said camp in a way. I'll still be one of those people that had to fight for our first baby, but I believe that maybe since we did have to go through all of that for all of those years, maybe God decided that was enough on helping mold us into parenthood, and that our next pregnancies would come along a lot easier.

 I am sure that this will be the LAST baby we have. I've had crazy dreams, I'm hung over feeling in the morning, and just tired pretty much, but thankful for what we have. Growing up, my sister and I always wanted a little brother, or just another sibling- that never did happen of course. So, I sit here now thinking of how Hayleigh and Reid play together, and how one more to that mix will be so much more fun.. a lot more work, but worth it all. They will have someone else to help them both along in life, to be there for them, to share secrets with because now we will have either 2 girls, or 2 boys. I'm hoping that they will be best friends, even though I know that is a little much to ask for, but I hope they are all at least close.

From the feeling I get and the chart that was right for both Hayleigh and Reid, I feel deep down this baby is a girl. I hope I'm right, but I just feel like I already know this baby already, and who she will be somehow. Allen and I have already agreed on 1 name, while we are still trying to build a list, but I feel like this is baby, if indeed is a girl, will be our little Charlotte. I remember Hayleigh was kind of the same way- we had her name from day one pretty much as well too. In a few months, we shall see if I'm right, but I've already dreamed about her, and I'm soo excited to see if it all comes true.